sigh sigh sigh sigh
it doesn't feel right anymore
it feels out of place
and it feels she doesn't anymore
it feels she ____
it feels its gonna happen
it feels like fuck
it feels like im gonna die
it feels like i shouldn't bother anymore
it feels like shit
it feels like everythings negative
do i always have to start??
but when i do. it seems dead.
sigh sigh sigh sigh
who's been talking to you lately with weird question that you've not told me of like you usually do?
maybe that person is what making you want something new??
maybe you want that person now??
maybe im in the way of you two??
maybe you're talking to that person thats why it seems dead??
maybe what L said was true
maybe it'll happen again
maybe im a puppet
why before it happen, we were able to hold each other in front of your schoolmates, but not mine??
why do you say ____ when they ask who your ___ is??
maybe you want ____
maybe you're not proud
of course you can now, you need not worry so much now
but its harder for me...
or maybe...im just thinking too much. sigh FUCK!!

if you want just go =((

='( just tell me instead of pulling yourself away from what you really really REALLY want... ='((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 5:52 PM

i realize something or am i just too scared... =((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:34 PM

somehow i feel something is wrong...
somehow i feel its coming...
somehow i feel what im not really suppose to feel...
somehow i feel down...
somehow i feel it won't last long...
somehow i feel you don't want this...
somehow i feel insecure...
somehow i feel you want but not with me...
somehow i feel crappy...
somehow i feel like its raining...
somehow i feel pain...
somehow...somehow...somehow...
='((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:15 AM

Hey people Okay i've got nothing much to say actually. haha.

So yesterday I met her at her friend's birthday chalet. Haha could only stay for awhile though. Happy 15 Years Old Lydia! haha yeah so thats pretty much it.
Studies are a bored. Life's a bore too.

One good thing is that i have her now =)) i'll treasure it i swear i will. i'll love you till the end. till forever. i won't leave you i swear i won't. i'll only leave you till you want me too. i love you =)

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 3:57 PM

Hey hey hey! Okay the past two days have been kinda boring. Lol. Yesterday I had to do maths the whole day. And I really mean the whole day. But it was worth it. Cause I finally did some studying. Like finally. I was like listening to Maroon 5's old album practically the whole day. It made me sad during some moments but got over it.

So today was not to bad. Woke up at around 11.40?? Listen to some music. And kinda dance like some fool cause no one was home. Haha. The clean up the house and showered at around 2?? Haha smelly yes but I don't care cause no one was home! Then read some letters that I still kept that was given by her. Made me sad practically thinking about it. Sigh. well i don't know cause what you tell me now is what you told me before and in those letters. sigh. and im very scared. sigh.. =(( Then I did two of my English essays that was suppose to be done so yup! Now I'm left with my social studies essays and I'm off to do it now so till next time. BYE PEOPLE!!! =))

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 8:42 PM

two word that describe you rahim,
fucked up.
you are fucked up.
thats why it happened before
thats why your parents are doing all this
and also because they love you.
and what are you doing now.
you're just letting it out.
it doesn't make sense.
do you love them or not?
here they are trying to help you.
but you're just being a spoil brat
there's no point in crying about it.
you're just some fucked up piece of shit. thats it.
your parents love you soooo damn much
they give you everything you ever need. and want
but what are you doing??
nothing. you're just wasting your life away.
they want you to do well
you are not doing well
you want something.
they give you.
you're not giving them what they want. which has nothing to do with money.
they are giving you want you want. which involves money.
what they want is free. but you have to work hard for it
what you want has a cost. which involves money and hard work.
you left your mom alone when she wanted you to follow her
you didn't want to follow
then you felt bad and cry over it when she already left.
what the fuck is wrong with you!!
rahim...
when are you going to stop dreaming??
WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEA!!
sigh...

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:19 PM

HAH HAH HAH HAH HAH HAH!! reeeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaat
its gonna reeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeaaaaaaat
history its gonna repeat itself
hah hah hah hah. hoh hoh hoh hoh.
god bless the ones that might get hurt.
is it?
rahim you're mad!!
ni hem pen!!
kamu gila!
*tamil language*!!
GET OVER IT!
FACE IT!!
fuck it??
*they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance!!*

contradiction
1:some stuff
2:some opposite stuff
HAH lame!!

=P
sighfuckthis
itsgonnahappenagain
itscomingsoon
ibetthiswholeworlditscomingsoon
sigh
='((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:01 AM

WAZZUP PEEP! Okay i am updating for one reason. Just one. And thats cause sweeeet asked me too. Heh.

OKAY!!! So let me see. I've been meeting her quite alot lately and i feel hhhaaaaaaaaaappppppyyyyyyyy!!!! Heh. My wish is coming true!! =))

So today i met sweetsss.. then went to sim lim square and realised its not the place when i asked my friend so went to sim lim tower!!! Heh. So yeap went there! But then didn't buy my stuff cause like mom didn't give me cash for it. So only took measurements!! uh huh!! Then went to simei and met up with sweets yeap. Heh sorry left without letting you know. Heh.

so yeah guess thats it. heh. take care!!

sigh...

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 11:24 PM