Sunday, April 27, 2008
DON'T SAY THOSE WORDS WHEN YOU'VE DONE IT! DON'T TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER BY SAYING THOSE WORDS CAUSE IT ISN'T MAKING ME FEEL ANY BETTER! IT MAKES ME FEEL FUCKING WORSE! IT MAKES ME THINK LIKE I'M A FUCKING DOG! I JUST FUCKING CAN'T TAKE IT WHEN YOU TOLD ME THE DATE! FUCK! i still do but i wonder why. why can't i stop. this is fucking irritating. i need something to get things out of my mind.
Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 11:33 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
MAYDAY PARADE
MISERABLE AT BEST
Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
'Cause I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you but
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best
Oh well, crying isn't gonna change anything.
...
Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 5:59 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Its only a few hours left before it all comes down like a heavy rain. The time when it started, the happiness, the great feeling, it all happen a year ago. That was the day when i started to feel like I'm the happiest guy in the world. But once again it can never come back. Can never feel what I felt. It was so great. It can never be repeated. "I'll l--- you for the rest of my life", "No one can ever be in our way", "You can never be r-------", "I'd die without you". The phrases that I thought it was true. But i guess nothing can last forever. Always easy to go down, Never easy to go up. Can someone help me?? I guess no one can. Help given, but not wanted. Help wanted but not given. Wth is wrong with me. Everythings not going right. Sleepless nights, sleepy day.
I Love You
Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 9:33 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Hey so today was aye okay.
And I tried my best to really not think about anything. I tried studying and tried paying attention in class today. It works at times, but the it just keep coming into my mind.
After school I skipped Adam Khoo crap and yeah, and I followed Gavin and Faizal and sat and chat. Then Gavin went to fetch his "friend" from SAFRA and came. Damn I couldn't take it when I see both of them together. They seemed very happy and thats good. Hope they last long. Felt like crying so badly at times but i just kept it in me during that period of time.
So yeap that was my day today.
I've got no idea why the hell you're scolding me for just because I'm not hungry for dinner. Whats wrong with not eating?? I don't get you.
can't stop. really really can't stop. i'm trying my fucking best and feeling so fucking annoyed with myself. goodbye.
Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 8:48 PM
Monday, April 14, 2008
i thought you were the one, my one and only true one. you promised. you were afraid to face another break-up situation. i swore to you i wouldn't leave you. i swore to you that i'll love you forever. you gave me hope for everlasting love. but i guess nothing last forever. its pure bullshit. forever love, pure bullshit, "i'll love you forever and ever". what love is there now. you said you wouldn't care what your family says and that you'd show them that this can last forever. i wonder if what you say is an excuse or what. just so you won't hurt me soo much. you admit you think you like someone else. but you don't have to say all the others. that part hurts me the most. while the others are just extras. i guess thats that. and like i've sworn. i'll still love you forever and ever. and one thing i admit, i can't move on. as long as you're happy i'll be happy. good luck with that guy and all the best. you can do it. he'll take care of you from now on. and we'll just be friends from now on. and the following lyrics, describe well enough about how i feel. I Love You.
MAYDAY PARADE
Three Cheers For Five Years
I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see 'us', not 'you and me'
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering (an offering)
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
Remember you now
So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight.
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)
So sleep alone tonight.
(How does he taste when he's on your lips.)
With no one here just by your side
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)
Sleep alone tonight.
[x3]
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 8:46 PM
