i realize something or am i just too scared... =((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:34 PM

somehow i feel something is wrong...
somehow i feel its coming...
somehow i feel what im not really suppose to feel...
somehow i feel down...
somehow i feel it won't last long...
somehow i feel you don't want this...
somehow i feel insecure...
somehow i feel you want but not with me...
somehow i feel crappy...
somehow i feel like its raining...
somehow i feel pain...
somehow...somehow...somehow...
='((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:15 AM

Hey people Okay i've got nothing much to say actually. haha.

So yesterday I met her at her friend's birthday chalet. Haha could only stay for awhile though. Happy 15 Years Old Lydia! haha yeah so thats pretty much it.
Studies are a bored. Life's a bore too.

One good thing is that i have her now =)) i'll treasure it i swear i will. i'll love you till the end. till forever. i won't leave you i swear i won't. i'll only leave you till you want me too. i love you =)

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 3:57 PM

Hey hey hey! Okay the past two days have been kinda boring. Lol. Yesterday I had to do maths the whole day. And I really mean the whole day. But it was worth it. Cause I finally did some studying. Like finally. I was like listening to Maroon 5's old album practically the whole day. It made me sad during some moments but got over it.

So today was not to bad. Woke up at around 11.40?? Listen to some music. And kinda dance like some fool cause no one was home. Haha. The clean up the house and showered at around 2?? Haha smelly yes but I don't care cause no one was home! Then read some letters that I still kept that was given by her. Made me sad practically thinking about it. Sigh. well i don't know cause what you tell me now is what you told me before and in those letters. sigh. and im very scared. sigh.. =(( Then I did two of my English essays that was suppose to be done so yup! Now I'm left with my social studies essays and I'm off to do it now so till next time. BYE PEOPLE!!! =))

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 8:42 PM

two word that describe you rahim,
fucked up.
you are fucked up.
thats why it happened before
thats why your parents are doing all this
and also because they love you.
and what are you doing now.
you're just letting it out.
it doesn't make sense.
do you love them or not?
here they are trying to help you.
but you're just being a spoil brat
there's no point in crying about it.
you're just some fucked up piece of shit. thats it.
your parents love you soooo damn much
they give you everything you ever need. and want
but what are you doing??
nothing. you're just wasting your life away.
they want you to do well
you are not doing well
you want something.
they give you.
you're not giving them what they want. which has nothing to do with money.
they are giving you want you want. which involves money.
what they want is free. but you have to work hard for it
what you want has a cost. which involves money and hard work.
you left your mom alone when she wanted you to follow her
you didn't want to follow
then you felt bad and cry over it when she already left.
what the fuck is wrong with you!!
rahim...
when are you going to stop dreaming??
WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEA!!
sigh...

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:19 PM

HAH HAH HAH HAH HAH HAH!! reeeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaat
its gonna reeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeaaaaaaat
history its gonna repeat itself
hah hah hah hah. hoh hoh hoh hoh.
god bless the ones that might get hurt.
is it?
rahim you're mad!!
ni hem pen!!
kamu gila!
*tamil language*!!
GET OVER IT!
FACE IT!!
fuck it??
*they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance!!*

contradiction
1:some stuff
2:some opposite stuff
HAH lame!!

=P
sighfuckthis
itsgonnahappenagain
itscomingsoon
ibetthiswholeworlditscomingsoon
sigh
='((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 2:01 AM

WAZZUP PEEP! Okay i am updating for one reason. Just one. And thats cause sweeeet asked me too. Heh.

OKAY!!! So let me see. I've been meeting her quite alot lately and i feel hhhaaaaaaaaaappppppyyyyyyyy!!!! Heh. My wish is coming true!! =))

So today i met sweetsss.. then went to sim lim square and realised its not the place when i asked my friend so went to sim lim tower!!! Heh. So yeap went there! But then didn't buy my stuff cause like mom didn't give me cash for it. So only took measurements!! uh huh!! Then went to simei and met up with sweets yeap. Heh sorry left without letting you know. Heh.

so yeah guess thats it. heh. take care!!

sigh...

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 11:24 PM

Hey people. Life's been pretty hard lately. Remedial and all. Well can't exactly remember what happen last week so I'll just say what I remember.

So on Saturday went to Toa Payoh kinda early cause Arina asked me to meet her there to give Afiq a birthday suprise. So yeap did. The funny part is that we bumped into her teacher there. Haha he wanted to buy a cake for Afiq too so yeah didn't have to take out money. =)) Then went to the classroom for awhile and I felt odd cause I've never been there and I'm not a student there but the teacher doesn't mind. Haha he invited me in there too! So Afiq came and I had to distract him to somewhere else awhile and of all place I brought him to the living room. Haha. But thats where the celebration was suppose to be so nvm! After awhile Arina asked me to bring him in so yeah did so and haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN AFIQ!!! Haha. Yeap that was about it till I met them again after their class. Suppose to watch a movie but there was nothing on so yeap. Went to my house and yeah they went home after that.

Then Arina's birthday was 2 days later so went out with them and few friends. Haha. ME and Zakiah's plan didn't work out at first then came back in action. Haha. We bought the cake with help from Zafri and Faizal. Haha. Then Zafri Faizal and the rest brought Arina to the Esplanade rooftop while me and Zakiah had to take the long route to the Esplanade. Then met up with Zaf and Faizal at the first level of Esplanade. Did the cake and brought it up. And we kinda suprised Arina. Haha. Kinda had a cake fight but I didn't get any cake on me =)). Good for me! haha Then we all had dinner at Burger King. Then went home from there. Had an weird moment in the bus but nvm. =))

Well yeah thats about it i guess. till next time!! cheers peeps!! =))


to anon:
stop being a pussy and tell me who you are. and don't you say that to her! FUCK YOU!
to someone:
i'm sorry i don't. i really am sorry
to you:
i do ____ you very very much. it won't happen again. i swear it won't. im afraid to. i want to ___ you and all but i guess i can't=((

Fall Out Boy
is my kind of music 10:22 PM